I wish when I was little someone would have told me being an artist would have been hard and full of judgmental people.....

I'm working my hardest in my classes right now. Every class but layout. InDesign is sure a hard program for me to care about. I'm a illustrator NOT a graphic designer. Sooooo honesty i'm half assing that class.

Intermediate Type is a pretty ok class. I get alot of feedback from the teacher. So it's easy to do your best when your in constant contact with her. All the other students keep bitching....sometimes it's just so negative in that class. Luckly I bring my head phones to drown it out.

Intermediate Drawing is ok. All we do in that class is Still Life Drawing. Now I can understand why it's important....but I'm not a photographer! Maybe if I had a camera....but my arm is not as good as a camera.... That class is slowly making me a perfectionist....I DON"T WANT TO BE! T_T....but it i don't try I'll get a bad grade...I ever tryed to put my own twist on things and he shut me down...

Now I'm going to bitch...about people
Last week or so in drawing class (there's only like 8 students in that class) I confidently told everyone in that class I was considering becoming a grade school art teacher.....and then I added I wanted to get my Master's Degree in Illustration. They all looked at me like I was stupid. "That's alot of money" "You don't need a masters for that you know" "why?" Sooooo many remarks...it kinda hurt I won't lie, little more then most when the teacher joined in....
I'm not going through all this art stuff for money, I'm doing it because it makes me happy. I want to learn to be better and if people want to buy it or I get hired because I'm good at it. Then that would make me happier. I know teachers don't make alot. But i looovveeee children, and inspiring young minds like my teacher did for me would give me great joy.
I know I don't need a master's for that. But with a master I know I have more opinions, and I want to have a paper that says I MASTERED something. I went all the way. I know that might sound stupid... but that's what i want.
I want to teaching degree, well because I want to teacher. And who knows I might not teach grade school forever. With a masters I could teach college students. I don't know....just to have that option...
And who knows... I might not be a teacher at all. I might just walk around with a masters in illustration and a teaching degree.

I want to be happy...and if this makes me the stupidest person ever for spending all this money. Then I'll be the stupidest happiest person ever.


Wish me luck

Kelley R. Wease